I just came across an account in Instagram that really melted my heart. I love following fitness related and baby clothing accounts, both boost me up personally and in motherhood. But just now I came across a young woman who is known for her fitness inspiration. She lost her baby at three days old. Three. She had a mere 72 hours with her baby. How is that fair? How is it fair to grow a beautiful child for 37+ weeks and have to say goodbye?
After I finished reading a post she made regarding her child loss I looked up to the swing in my living room where my beautiful little girl was snoozing away. I went over and picked her up and just held her. I smelt her hair, squeezed her hand and tickled her face. It really is scary how quickly life can change. How you can go from cloud 9 to ground zero so fast?
As sleep deprived as I may be, As bad as I miss being “skinny”, As much as I miss my husband and me time, As scary as motherhood is, I can’t imagine my life any other way. I don’t know how I smiled before being a mom. I don’t remember life a month ago, what did I do all day!? I don’t know what I would do without this little girl, without this little family we’ve created.
So tonight I made myself a promise. I promise to hold you a little tighter Claire. I promise to love you as deep as the ocean and as big as the universe. I promise to be your biggest support and the strongest shoulder to cry on. I promise to do my best at being your mommy.
You never know what tomorrow brings so tonight do me a favor and hold your loved ones a little tighter tonight.
Xoxo
Brianna
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